Seems like love takes me to strange places. or at least the search for it.

I started dating again, after a non-dating period of some length. I really like this girl. Thing is, I keep overthinking.. does she like me? is it something serious? Am I being a good date? maybe I'm too pushy?

As this has only just began, I shouldn't really be thinking all that. I should relax and enjoy the moment. And she does help me relax, but It's difficult.

When I'm troubled, my stomach acts up, and let me tell you, it's having a field day the last few days. Feels like it's indecided whether it wants no food or more food, just so it'd scramble it up and make me feel I want to throw up. Call it the jitters. I know I shouldn't get so worried. but I do.

And don't tell me that's all what being in-love is about. It's too early to tell true feelings. This is not a love-at-first-sight affair. more like "let's meet, and see what happens" affair :)

For a guy like me who's a great beliver in love in first sight, going out on dates with a girl I met online, is a leap of faith. First time I see her, is first time I meet her. And giving a chance for love to develop, well, It's no picnic. maybe I'm just a guy who wants it all here and now. black and white, neat and clean. :) well, at my age I should know better.. :P